Tuesday, June 10, 2003

Edifier du Jour-Psalm 119:129-136(NASB)
129 Your testimonies are wonderful; Therefore my soul observes them. 130 The unfolding of Your words gives light; It gives understanding to the simple. 131 I opened my mouth wide and panted, For I longed for Your commandments. 132 Turn to me and be gracious to me, After Your manner with those who love Your name. 133 Establish my footsteps in Your word, And do not let any iniquity have dominion over me. 134 Redeem me from the oppression of man, That I may keep Your precepts. 135 Make Your face shine upon Your servant, And teach me Your statutes. 136 My eyes shed streams of water, Because they do not keep Your law.
This is one of those scary verses that none of us live up to, except for that last verse in the passage. I'm not crying a river physically this morning, but yet there is an ache that I'm not living as God would want me to. I was sitting here this morning feeling out of place, despite feeling much better than yesterday with a good antibiotic and anti-allergy medication in my system. However, the out-of-placeness is spiritual, not physical. The self-centered me doesn't want God to order my steps. For me, there is a two-step process in letting God take control. The first is knowing that you need to have God take charge. That is the easiest of the two, for it's easy to see that things go better in the long run when God's in charge. However, acknowledging that it would be nice to have a God-centered life is easy. Acknowledging that it would be nice to lose weight and exercise is nice, too. Actually wanting to make those changes is another thing. I'm feeling a need to push past some plateaus that I've been on for a while spiritually and do more than just be a good churchman, and a large part of it stems from a bit of apathy towards God. There isn't quite the tongue-hanging-out thirst for God in verse 131. How do you learn to want God? You can learn facts, figures, techniques, but how do you learn desire? Maybe by studying the Word and the modern testimony of believers, you'll see that God is real, active, and transformative. A good form of envy will kick in, for you'll desire to taste of what they're having. If your hanging out with fellow apathetics, you don't see that striving, that thirst for God. Find out where the spiritually thirsty people are, for they're the ones on the hunt for that living water.

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